Endless Thoughts

I finally had the moments of just watching tv sitcoms. Not movies in the DVD player or any reality shows... but tv sitcoms.

I've watched a few episodes of Will & Grace for the past two days. They never cease to entertain me. I've watched a few episodes of Home Improvement and The Cosby shows which both used to be my favorite. If I had a choice, I'd opt for Will & Grace over any shows.

I enjoyed Will & Grace because for one, they're so honest and for two, they're so expressive and they know each other enough to read their mind and finish their sentences. They didnt care about what others thought of them. They blurt out and forgive. They stand up for each other regardless of their position. I know it's only a show but it tells me a lot.

Something like... take life lightly, be witty and say things fearlessly. Friends will be friends.

But anyway, my point is... I enjoy shows that include gay people and people who hang with them. They speak for their mind loud and clear unlike many others who took time and think before they speak. For instance, last night, I watched Vegas. The lesbians were in this episode. The way they talked about life was quick and witty. The Desperate Housewives, which attracted million viewers, is run by a gay director.

I just sense a pattern... that in general, gay people and people who hang with them have been better entertainers because they are quick, blunt and witty in conversations. It cuts the waiting time.

I don't deserve this (when this is not worth earning). I don't deserve this - could mean I didnt work hard to deserve this or this is lame enough I don't deserve this.

For example, Tanner has been patient with me. I have been the utmost disorganized person ever this year and when I say he doesn't deserve someone like me. I meant, he deserves someone who would have all the time for him and who would have higher spirits to share with him. I didn't mean that I was too good and he was a bad dog that doesn't deserve me.

I was told that I used the word 'deserve' inappropriately. I should not say 'Tanner doesnt deserve someone like me' but use the other way around that 'I deserve him'.

Am I making any sense?

One of the movies I watched was Alfie. It is some movie I can relate to.

At the end of the movie, I didn't get up and stop the movie but let it run. Thoughts were running through my head and at the same time, the voice of the song was so clear that I followed through easily.

"Old Habits Die Hard"
By Mick Jagger and Dave Stewart

I thought I shook myself free
You see I bounce back quicker than most
But i'm half delirious, Is too mysterious
You walk through my walls like a ghost
And I take everyday at a time
I'm as proud as a Lion in his Lair
Now there's no denying it, a note to crying it
Your all tangled up in my head

Old habits die hard
Old soldiers just fade away
Old habits die hard
Harder than November rain
Old habits die hard
Old soldiers just fade away
Old habits die hard
Hard enough to feel the pain

We haven't spoken in months
You see i've been counting the days
I dream of such humanities, such insanities
I'm lost like a kid and i'm late
But i've never taken your coats
Haven't no block on my phone
I act like an addict, i just got to have it
I can never just leave it alone

Old habits die hard
Old soldiers just fade away
Old habits die hard
Harder than November rain
Old habits die hard
Old soldiers just fade away
Old habits die hard
Hard enough to feel the pain

And I can't give you up
Can't leave you alone
And its so hard, so hard
And hard enough to feel the pain

Old habits die hard
Old soldiers just fade away
Old habits die hard
Harder than November rain
Old habits die hard
Old soldiers just fade away
Old habits die hard
Hard enough to feel the pain

I watched on TV news last week briefly about the London explosions. The segment of the news focused on the upbringing advantages of having a camera included in a cell phone or a wireless handheld.

People who were there at the incident were asked to bring their pictures they took at the scene for investigations. It was found that the pictures were helpful during investigation.

I wouldn't be surprised to see in the future brochures or commercials when selling cell phones and wireless handhelds with camera part of them that one of the reasons to buy them is, "You may hold a hard evidence and make money". (i dont know about making money. it's the dirty business world talking in my head).

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on a depressing note, there were pictures taken without respect after the explosions and posted up. I was like "Why would a bystander just do that?" .... but then I remember reading the book "Shutterbabe".

However, sometimes, the pictures are needed to be seen for impact. I read "The Century" (heavyweight book) filled with photos ranged from death, hunger, and war to success, happiness, and celebration. I was in awe. I still can remember the emotions flipping through. *sighs*

A picture is worth a thousand of words. Good or bad, it's powerful.

For some of you who asked why I have two different blogs...

Proudpetite is where I normally write about my daily life.

Marathonbabe is where thoughts and debates take place.

I've been having many thoughts and when one strikes, I'll post.

I'm trying to reduce my time with the blog so bear with the silence. The storm cannot last forever :)

"Let every nation knows,
whether it wishes
us well or ill,
that we shall
pay ANY price,
bear any burden,
meet any hardship,
support any friend,
oppose ANY foe,
to assure the survival
and success of liberty."
-JFK

That's on the back of the t-shirt I'm wearing-- worn by and given to me by Clare T. Cassidy